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ha,..dah hbs pon practikal,..cm ikat contrak la plak,..abis prac,.pts dgn gg,.klu x tetiap ari tgkmuka pak mertua,..alahh,.mmg sdh tau hbs prac,..diaowg smu bebaik,.en.jamil.a.rafi,a.zam.a.hamzah,..mmg masyuk sesgt lahh,..best klu jd part of tm tau,..tp xtau da ke x rezeky nk keja c2.rs cm nk dok lm lg kt c2,..ni pun myb one of reason nape aku nekad clash wit gg,..dlu hehry tgk muka ayh dia,..cm bg aku arapan la live wit anak dia,..but now,.smua dah end dah,...tp best sgt,..smua best

it end,..

alow,...
last nite,...aku dah clash dgn gg,..
sdih sesgt ahh,..aku yg mintak,..tp aku tau,dia x lah sedih,.siap g thg bola 2 kira orait ahh kan.even kami br jer knl nk caple dlm ms x smp pun 2 bln,..aku mmg syg dia gler,n byk dah bnda yg aku plan tok us in future,.nk wat cm ner kan,.jodoh n pertemuan 2 kat tgn tuhan,.if dia serius wit me,nnt time dia blik malysia,.he will contack me,..that juz if,.tp aku mmg sunyi sesgt tnpa dia lah,.mood aku pun xok,..aku rs nk mrh jer kt smua owg,..n bl owg ckp aku rs nk gelak smp kuar air mata,..gg,.nape u buat i cm nih,.i wrong lahh,..kila mmg syg sesgt kt u,.pas ni mmg x smangat ahh,..mgu dpn nk g kuantan,.hope dpt spirit br lah,.ya allah,.tlg la aku tok aku teruskan pperjalanan hidup ni,..hal smbg study pun x settle lg nih,.if smbg myb aku akan bz gler o agak bz n bleh lupa smu nihh,..it to hard wat ms nih bg aku,..myb gg pk aku x sius n mntk clash,..tp bg aku dia pun x sius gak,.x pertahnkan pun our relation nh,..dia ego n selfish,..xnmpk yg aku nih syg dia,..u nih cm afif,..cm zuraimy,..mmg frust sgt dgn perangai u,.i try 2 delete all bout u n my mind box,..it wll help me trus hdup dgn aman,.live must go onn rite,..dat my jurney of lovve wit gg,..

im hepy now,..

aii,...
aku kat umah nih,..agak slepy but i hv 2 taip gak la,..nk bgtau pe yg lates sal aku n gg kan,..
orait,..ni nk cite nih,...2 ari lepas aku mmg gaduh besar dgn dia ah,...smp nk pts,..aku pun biase lah,..mmg nanges gler cm nk maty gak la,...aku mmg syg lah kt dia,..ni mmg sius,.aku mmg x tipu lah wei,..so,..pas ckp,.bincang smua,...so,...x jd lahh nk pts,...wei,..mmg gler lahh sal pts nihh,..aku sius ah tension mu tau x,..aku nk dia,.mmg nk dia,.pesoalannyer,.dia betol ker nk akt aku,..ha,..debarkan soalan cm 2,.aku pn mmg xnk mengharap lbh sgt,.tkt jd cm afif plak nnt,tp aku mmg dah cinta gler ahh kt dia,klu lah dia tau yg aku mmg sesungguh ati dgn dia,.myb dia akan sius cket,..n if dia x sius dgn aku dia xkan bg aku mmg hapar sgt smp cm nih,...gg,..w u timbul?hu3

go killa,..!!!!!!!

ai,..aku lg,..
dah taip nih rs cm ok cket lah,..thankz yah coz meng ok kan aku,..aku rs xdak sape fhm kot,.aku yg wat kpsan,.aku lah yg kn tanggung kan,..relax jer lah,..im cool rite,.he3,..suraya,miza,fin,seha,.depa ni ckup lah fhm aku,.tp aku xleh lah nk gangu owg,.depa pun da masalah gak,..dgn ini,.aku nk berjanji,..

saya,.NOR SHAKILA BINTI MD IDRIS
kad pengenalan 880928-..-....
berjanji akan menjaga hati n perasaan supaya tidak lg menitiskan air mata,
im try my best,.i can do it,.aku dah xnk berjanji sgt dah,.x nk bersumpah,xkan ikut dgn ckp laki yg mintak benda yg mepek2,.no way,.im wit my own way of my life,.if u want me,.follow.if cant,.get lose from my life,.as long dat im hepy,that my promice 2 my self,.
ok,.psang strategy,..GO KILLA,.!!!!!

,..im not happy wit my life now,..

askum,..
ari ni aku sedih sesgt,..bkn lah ari ni jer kot,aku ke yg salah wat keputusan smp aku sendiry yg sedih?
salah aku kot,.aku heppy sgt bl jiji msg aku,.sk gler tau,.aku pun dah citer kan cm ner hepynyer aku,.n kali ni aku nk mengadu betapa sdh n confiuznyer aku,..umm,...aku rs jiji 2 bkn sk kat aku pun,.juz nk bg dia x boring and da tmp nk msg jer kot,.aku mmg sdh sgt,.nmpk sgt aku jer yg sk kat dia,..aku rs cm x best la cm nihhh,.date caple pun lupa,.tarikh bday pun lupa,..pe nih?aku bkn la org yg sk majuk,.aku pun xnk dia tension,.n aku pun xnk tension gak.aku nk pts ker?aii,...aku dah wat keptsan dah trima dia,.tp 2 lah,.mak aku pun ckp yg dia 2 bkn nyer sk aku pun,..aku pun dapat rs cm 2 gak,.betol ckp mak,..kite kn trima owg yg sk kite,.bkn kite sk owg 2,.n abg rafi plak ckp,.kite syg owg 2 sekali n owg 2 syg kite 7 kali,.2 la kite kn cr,.btol ckp fina,.slh aku bgtau kt dia yg aku sk dia,.aku kn slow la cket skarng nih,..jgn tunjuk sgt yg aku nih sk dia,.pape pun aku dcd time dia blik cni lah,..tp bln ogos nih,..lg 2 bln 2,..gler lahh,..aku kn tgu n terseksa lah,.aku xnk bgtau n crite kt dia coz kang jd complecated tau x,..mst serabut nyer lahh,..aku sbr je lah,..skarang aku x rs pun dia 2 jodoh aku lah,..fahmy pun x,.aku pun xtau sape jodoh aku nih,..aku pasrah,.redha n tawakal jer smbl byk bedoa.aku xnk sesape skt ati,.n sdh,...walaupn aku dah ckup sdh dah skarang nih,..aku tau aku nih bkn tok dia,..

gg!!!

ohh,..got i hv 2 taiping again,..gg msg me,..
gg,...dak yg aku minat kt sek rendah dlu,..
nak kate aku tipu la 2,..it real lohhh,..aku x tipu,..dia msg and dia nak couple dgn aku,....n dia nak aku bg jwpan b4 dia blek malaysia,.
tat is 18.8.09,..
gler kan,...aku xtau wether ni jodoh ke per,..tp bygkan dia blajar kt japan n layak ke tok aku yg tahap diploma ni jer,..malunyerr,..
wei,..i hv 2 ask mum 4 their opinion,....
ke dia nk test aku jer,..o dia boring bl balik malaysia n if kami caple dia da ;a kwn,..um,..myb gak,...but,..i dont knowwww

im confiuzing,.....

now i fel so counfiuzing in way im going to be after i finish practical,....um,,.further study o find a job,.?

somebody plez help me,.but in this point of time,.no one come infront and give a good advice,..i guess,..but,.sudenlly last nite k.ana ask me about my resume,.she want me 2 sent a resume at CIMB bank,..oh my god,..what should i do,..i really domt know.//

i know that i have 2 study for support my family but hw if i cant get a nice job to support my family,.it really wst my time,..better i further deg,.juz 4 2 years,..oh no,.